Are You Happy?

Hey! whats up?!? so i haven't been on here for a while took some time off to just get my life all together or at least to figure what my next move should be and so far so good. I got a new job that is fun and keeps me busy and i get to be around people my age so that's pretty cool and yeah i am happy guys i am doing allot of things that i hadn't done in like a year and i just love it! i am being my true self and people have started to notice the changes and it makes them happy and well that makes me happy. So guys girls and everyone in between i hope you are happy too.

Just For Me

Did some book and movie shopping on Tuesday had a few hrs to my self so i figured why not go for a walk so i did and i got a few books and a magazine i had never heard off but its full of well stuff for me so its cool. Then i took a little trip down to another store and got the movie Precious what a movie guys its just sad and makes it even more sad to know girls have actually experienced that its just horrible. Love and respects the girls around you!!

Back?

Hello! lol I'm back and ready to talk again. Once again thanks to all the people that sent me emails that was pretty cool. Okay well.. lets see i am about to start a new job and I'm really looking forward to it should be fun and its a job so yeah money! aside from that I'm happy so yeah and update.

Condom Week

Okay then well lol wow i don't know whats next? well this whole week was and i guess still is condom week!! so guys please get your self some condoms its not hard to find them you can buy them or get them for free there is no age limit or anything like that and if you are too embarrassed to go buy some or ask for them well then maybe you aren't mature enough to be having sex.

Get your self's informed about that stuff and remember just because a guy says he is clean that doesn't mean go ahead and have sex without protection because well i mean come on we all know how that works right? you cant go asking all of the people that one person had sex with that is just not possible so just use protection and if it starts to become something more serious ask your partner to go and get tested its not rude and it shouldn't offend the person after all if they really do care about you they will understand and respect your request and don't buy that whole "oh i am allergic" crap dudes yes some people are but they have special ones so no excuses. and remember its your body and your life don't expect anyone else to look after you be smart about it.

I Wish I Could

So let me start by saying i really don't know many of the people that sent me messages over the past week but i really do appreciate it, it made me laugh smile and yes it even made me tear up a little. I don't know whats going to happen next i opened my heart and said what i had to say and you spoke your mind and have never lied to me or used me in anyway all i can say and do is tell you that i am your friend and all of the stuff we shared i have learned so much from and i will keep it with me for the rest of my life you have the right to be happy and so do i and as much as i wish i could be the one that gives that to you i cant and that's just the way things are. A friend to you i am and i will always be around for you dude i have told you that many times and i will never stop.

What Can I Do?

I don't know what happened i don't know what i can say or do to make it different. i told you once i will always be there for you and i mean it I've always meant it i wish you the best and i will always be there for you.

Guy Wednesday

This is Matt Long he has been in movies and some shows the current one is The Deep end its a nice show but really the only reason why i like it its because he is on it he just looks like a really sweet dude.

Shaving

Would it weird if i shaved my arm hair? i was shaving today and almost did it but i don't know it would be another thing to shave and i already try to put shaving my facial hair as much as i can so yeah i guess i shouldn't do it.

I Got Stuffed!!

Just got back from dinner with my friend we went to a chinese buffet and all i wanted to eat was shrimp and rice i must have had like 40 of them the big kind they were really good. I also saw a guy that i had a fight with when i was 14 i don't know why but he is still pissed about it i said hi and he called me an asshole i just laughed it off i guess some people never get over stuff.

Guy Wednesday

This guys is Sean Faris he is an actor model and idk what ever else he wants to be as long as he stays hot who cares. I know i haven't posted a guy wednesday for awhile but come on i think he more than makes up for it right? and if you don't think so then well you can suck it!

Wish I Could Sing

I cant get Kris Allen's song Red Guitar out my head well the whole CD is great but there is something about that song that makes me feel happy sucks for everyone else that happens to be around me but i like it.

First Crush

For the past few months I've been getting more comfortable with being into dudes and with the idea that being gay would be something really cool. I am not in the same position as many other gay/bi kids are in for me it wouldn't be that big of a deal to come out of the closet and say i am bi or gay because well my parents have dropped hints ever since i was 11 years old saying stuff like we will always love you no matter what you grow up to be and if you are happy that's all that matters to us.

So why haven't i done it yet? well like i said its only been a few months since the idea of being with a guy isn't something i felt was just me being a horny kid and since I've talked to other gay guys and realised that being gay isn't just about guys fucking each other just because they can and that's what so many people think of the gay community.

I now know that yes there are people that do that but so do straight ones but finding someone you can have that special connection with same sex or not that you can trust is an amazing thing and i look back at my first crush on a guy and yeah i was freaked out and i would cry about it because it was wrong but very time i saw the dudes face i couldn't stop smiling and how in any level can being that happy be wrong? i cant say that i am ready to come out to the people around me but knowing that i am not a bad person for feeling like this and that there is nothing to be ashamed about its going to make it a whole lot easier.

Dumb Beaver

I cant stand people that use the word boi why?? i mean yeah it has nothing to do with spelling and i know what it means but still why would you want to sound like such a dumb beaver?

Lazy Post

So i haven't had much to talk about and i am too lazy to post anything about whats going on but if you want my opinion on the whole late night talk show deal yeah it sucks you look forward to something for so long and then it gets taken away but its show business and its all about money and i am sure it will work out for everyone.

Big Help

The earthquake is Haiti is a horrible event that could have and can happen to any of us so if you can help in anyway do it there is allot of ways to do it and anything you can give i am sure is a big help.

Poker Face

So i have been watching poker after dark for at least 5 months and i still don't know a thing about poker it sucks because well i would really like to learn not sure why but it looks fun and well ill let you guys in on a little secret every now and then i stand in front of the mirror and practice my poker face and i think i have a really good one but have no one to use it on so its just for my own little entertainment.

New Headphones

I got new headphones today they were 60 bucks but my friend got me a discount and only paid 45 so yeah that was a great deal and i got a new cd just had to share that with you guys.

Guy Wednesday

First Guy Wednesday of the year is Chad White. This guy has to be one of my top 5 guys of all time he is tall he is hot has great lips and yeah.. he is hot! so yeah first Guy Wednesday of the year guys.

Happy New Year

Happy New Year i hope you guys had a great night i sure did. I try not to make new years resolutions but just try to be better then the year before but i think i will make one this year to get more comfortable with my sexuality and hey maybe even come out why not right?