What Can I Do?

I don't know what happened i don't know what i can say or do to make it different. i told you once i will always be there for you and i mean it I've always meant it i wish you the best and i will always be there for you.

Guy Wednesday

This is Matt Long he has been in movies and some shows the current one is The Deep end its a nice show but really the only reason why i like it its because he is on it he just looks like a really sweet dude.

Shaving

Would it weird if i shaved my arm hair? i was shaving today and almost did it but i don't know it would be another thing to shave and i already try to put shaving my facial hair as much as i can so yeah i guess i shouldn't do it.

I Got Stuffed!!

Just got back from dinner with my friend we went to a chinese buffet and all i wanted to eat was shrimp and rice i must have had like 40 of them the big kind they were really good. I also saw a guy that i had a fight with when i was 14 i don't know why but he is still pissed about it i said hi and he called me an asshole i just laughed it off i guess some people never get over stuff.

Guy Wednesday

This guys is Sean Faris he is an actor model and idk what ever else he wants to be as long as he stays hot who cares. I know i haven't posted a guy wednesday for awhile but come on i think he more than makes up for it right? and if you don't think so then well you can suck it!

Wish I Could Sing

I cant get Kris Allen's song Red Guitar out my head well the whole CD is great but there is something about that song that makes me feel happy sucks for everyone else that happens to be around me but i like it.

First Crush

For the past few months I've been getting more comfortable with being into dudes and with the idea that being gay would be something really cool. I am not in the same position as many other gay/bi kids are in for me it wouldn't be that big of a deal to come out of the closet and say i am bi or gay because well my parents have dropped hints ever since i was 11 years old saying stuff like we will always love you no matter what you grow up to be and if you are happy that's all that matters to us.

So why haven't i done it yet? well like i said its only been a few months since the idea of being with a guy isn't something i felt was just me being a horny kid and since I've talked to other gay guys and realised that being gay isn't just about guys fucking each other just because they can and that's what so many people think of the gay community.

I now know that yes there are people that do that but so do straight ones but finding someone you can have that special connection with same sex or not that you can trust is an amazing thing and i look back at my first crush on a guy and yeah i was freaked out and i would cry about it because it was wrong but very time i saw the dudes face i couldn't stop smiling and how in any level can being that happy be wrong? i cant say that i am ready to come out to the people around me but knowing that i am not a bad person for feeling like this and that there is nothing to be ashamed about its going to make it a whole lot easier.